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Was reading some articles and was wondering

how is it going to be if i get married now and have a baby?

I'll probably have to quit my masters and break my parents' hearts and hopes.

is this fair
why do i always have to wonder what you are up to
why is it so hard to reach you
and when i finally do,
you dont say a word

It's funny how I don't feel tired when I finished 40 episodes of drama series within two days,

and when I start my assignment, after long hours of sleep, I find it hard to keep my eyelids from closing.

If you noticed, I don't spam my blog with my partaying pictures anymore. Got out of the clubbing scene, kinda.

My life during the week days revolves around waking up late, usually in the evening because postgrads classes are all at night, and go have a late lunch with Dav8. He drives down to Semenyih from Klang, I know, damn sweet just so his babe doesn't have to go lunch alone, and get hit on by guys wtf. (I think thats his main concern)

Then he'll send me to my class, while he plays with my ds lite. He is seriously addicted to cooking mama, of all games, cooking mama wtf.

Classes are interesting, and tough at the same time. I feel like I have learnt nothing throughout my degree for the past 3 years. So it's either my degree is useless, or I have paid no attention in class for the past 3 years.

Class ends and Dav8 will pick me up and we'll go back to my room.

Then I'll start cooking. Chopping up onions, garlic, marinate chicken, pork, wash vege, soak them, heat up the frying pan, add oil, stir fry, deep fry, add salt, add soy sauce, and whatnots for the manjaboy while he continues playing cooking mama on my ds lite.

Sometimes he'll help out a bit. Helping = trying to practise what he learned from cooking mama - flip the pan while frying.

Then he'll set the table, and we eat.

And I'll WASH the dishes while he WATCHES prison break 3 on my laptop.

Then I'll join him for prison break.

On days when he doesn't let me cook, we'll head out for dinner, which happens all the time these days.

Sometimes he'll drive us out to hunt for ice kacang oh my favourite. I think that's the highlight of the day. ice kacang and watch sucky movies on astro provided by the mamak.

Sometimes I'll just prepare coffee for him because that boy loves crackers dipped in his coffee. I always make it quick so that he'll finish them up fast and I can have my white milk tea since I only have a mug in my room and we have to share.

Then we'll rest a bit, and he leaves at 6a.m to work in Klang after tucking me in bed.

On days that he isn't around, same routine just that I walk to and back from class to my room. Getting freaked out by toads along the hall way, insects that roam everywhere, getting called by the name 'Cindy'.

And I'll have really simple, convenient but non-nutritious food. e.g crackers with loads of nutella, peanut butter, tuna, hello panda biscuits. Oh I love nutella and peanut butter a lot. Finished the tub of nutella within 2 days and half of the peanut butter, just by spreading them on crackers.

Then I'll chat with Tammie thru sms-es. She'll send me pictures of her trip, her dinner, while I finish up my crackers and potato chips.

Now I feel hungry. Who says that my appetite will go down after I return from Aussie? Still eat like fuck what. Still 46kg what. No difference also. I think I eat more now, to compensate what I'd missed when I was away.

Weekends? Nothing much. Got sick of drinking, puking, and hang over. I'd choose movie over drinking anytime now. But I still do wine.

Am I getting older?

I think I'm just becoming to be a housewife.

I hate the fact that I just off the aircon in my room because I was shivering and wonder how I actually survived the winter in Perth without a heater.

I regret finishing the peanut butter and now I have none left to eat.

I'm happy that I finally quit drinking. Red wine only please.

I hate that you don't love me as much as I want you to.

I hate it when you try to scandal with me.

I'm still in my holiday mood. How nice if I can just have all the fun in the world. But this dream just crushes off when reality kicks in.

I regret for not buying that pair of bikini. Can never get that kind of design in Malaysia. Argh fashion in msia sucks.

I wish that I don't need anyone in my life. Actually, do I?

I'm weighing between getting a tattoo and the consequences of it e.g never ending lectures from parents.

I didn't come home on schedule. Changed my flight without my dad's permission, and only told him after that.

Missed my flight, spent hours in the airport to see if there are available seats on the next flights.

Bought another ticket home because I had to come back for my classes.

The 12 days in Perth was a blast, better than before. Probably this trip was all about playing and playing and playing.

Reached home, packed some stuff, and headed to uni. Only saw my dad today, mum's on a trip again.

Had a nice dinner. Watched Bond after that. The pieces finally fell in place.

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Tried to remember your smell and I couldn't.
I'm so scared that it's your face that I can't remember the next time.

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Tammie's someone who can make me go wild and crazy.
She's also someone who can calm me down when I'm at my lowest.
I miss her.
Can't wait to see her when she's done eating everything in Ipoh.

I miss mummy.

I haven't slept since last night. Gonna get myself a cup of coffee soon.

Coffee = sleep deprived = no time to sleep = busy = assignments

Yay! I'm being productive after 3 months. Finally using my brain wei.

Supposed to do some research but uni connection sucks sucks sucks it's taking ages to load the pages so I'm facebooking and blogging.

Random thoughts.

Why do you you you and you even care when you are already taken yourself?

Why do some people think so highly of themselves?

Don't ask me to on my webcam when you, you, and you don't have one to begin a video call with.

It's funny how I only communicate with my brother through MSN when we live under the same roof, oh and SMS too.

The Chinese in class, surprisingly are not the most kiasu students in class.

I forgot to bring my phone charger. So I'm going to be unreachable for the next few days until I go home.

group meeting soon *yawns*

I'm not happy
and I don't even know why.

It doesn't require a kiss or a hug, or a fancy car, or an expensive dinner.

I guess it's how you can put a smile on my face after I closed the door.

I used to think that faking a smile is a very hard thing to do. If you are happy, you smile, if you are not, you don't. What's the point of faking one if you're unhappy right?

Then I realized it's so much easier than smiling from your heart.

i'm feeling rather empty inside.

wait.

heartache

so its not so empty after all

but i rather feel empty.

im tired of doing this.

no more.

whats the best way of losing the noises.

why must you do things to disappoint me when you gave me promising words.

Today is the day that will haunt me for a long time,

because it's the day I experienced sexual harassment.

Be considerate, be patient, be understanding, be nice to everyone.

Tried.

and feel damn tired.

I guess I'm happier being the spoilt child, who takes everyone for granted.
That's the way I'm brought up to, the way all my ex-bfs treated me, the way my friends made me be.

Selfish, but I'm happier that way.

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You begged me for a chance, I gave in. In the end things didn't turn out right, and you blamed me.

Bitched about me? Hello? Is that what a guy do after a bad break up? Do you even hear me talking bad about you?

Sohai.

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Picture taken after I got carried out of Poppy. Don't know who took this picture but I found it in Tam's blog.

Not bad what, still can look up and smile for the camera.

We used to be happy it was just cloud9 when we were 7.
But now we'll just walk past those bars on the chocolate section in the supermarket.

It used to be Guess, then Coach, and now Gucci. In the future? Bottega perhaps.

I guess it's the experience, that if we once had something, we always look forward for something better.

He said, 'You trained me well. Now I can handle any girls.'

I guess he trained me well too. In a way that no one is good enough for me, or in other words, no one can afford me, in terms of emotional needs.

So don't even bother trying.

I'm better off being alone. So that I can't expect anything from anyone, when everyone is just a friend to me.

I had the worst clubbing nightmare last night at Poppy.
I don't remember what happened after 2a.m. Because that's the time Nicky left. I only remember him saying goodbye and nothing after that.

I asked Dav8 how many times I puked last night, he said, 'UNCOUNTABLE'.

When I woke up this morning and took shower, my right arm hurt and there's a cut on it.Then I saw bruises over my both hands and legs.

Apparently I behaved naughty, couldn't walk straight at all, broke a table full of glasses, and got carried to the car.

Sigh, damn embarrassing. Not stepping in Poppy the next few weeks already.

Anyway, some of the things that made me happy these few days.

I just finished baking something. Guess what it is? Hint : Baileys.

I'm going to start baking something else after this.

My life revolves around baking, going out, lunch with Tam, dinner with Tam, washing dishes at home, shopping, yumcha, and more baking. I think I'm made to be a housewife seriously.

But this kinda life will end soon. ):

Okay, back to baking.

Someone woke me up with a call and I can't get back to sleep anymore. Sigh what am I going to do until 7p.m?

I don't know if it is the dodgy weather but I realized that my tolerance level has dropped.

Tolerance towards people, and alcohol.

I actually start to get annoyed and irritated by people, which hardly happened before I came back. The worst part is, I get angry easily again wtf.

Being angry when someone is late.
Being angry when the food I ordered sucks. I hardly complain about the food in Aus, probably it's because I'm dealing with RM now so yea.
Being angry when people do things to make me angry.

I don't like being angry ok. Brings my mood down, and waste of time but sigh why do I get affected like that?

This is the last weekend that I can party hard without feeling any guilt at all, before I become a student again.

Yea I'm staying. (: For a better reason I hope.

Tammie's back, so the drinking routine resumes.

When kina heng asked me whats the plan later, I said I wanna see Tam because I haven't seen her for a long time.

And he replied, 'You only didnt see her for two days.'

Yea man, 2 days is very long ok. I think if there is someone I can't live without, it'll be Tammie, besides my family of course.

And she came up with this brilliant diet plan for me.

Drink until I vomit blood.

If it doesn't work, she has a back up plan.

Orang Asli.

I am so going to be 40 again.

Morning people!

I just came back from dimsum with kimmy omg I cant believe that I had 2 lohmaikai along with other stuff.

When I finished the first, I told kimmy, 'eh I still feel like eating la.'

And before he could stop me, I ordered the 2nd plate. Why am I such an impulsive eater.

And I'm going to sleep in like 15 minutes? Good job wei leng good job.

So gonna go jogging when I wake up later.

'No wonder you still weigh at 46kg. How to lose weight like that?' I so wanna cry now ok.

Tammie and her friends stocked the fridge up with cans of beer.

I had 6 cans last night.

This morning when I woke up, I walked past my lunch which Tammie bought for me, and walked straight to the fridge. Lunch = 2 cans of Heineken.

Those beer gave me really bad period cramp.

Tried using tampons because we went to the beach.

I couldn't insert and it hurt like hell. Tammie said it's because I've been single for 6 months wtf